Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year!

Wow can you believe it's 2010! The years are just flying by so fast anymore. It feels like just yesterday kev and I were newly weds and had no kids, mortgage or responsibilities. Now look it us, we are full fledged adults. Kids, careers, mortgage, car payments. We just need a little credit card debt and we would be set. I keep thinking about that letter that I wrote my senior year of high school about what I would be doing in ten years. I have a different career, but everything else is pretty much the same from what I remember. so i guess I have done pretty good by my 18 year old standards. My goal for 2010 is to relax. I take everything way to seriously, especially with my kids. I want to be able to keep my cool better with my kids, to teach them the right way to resolve conflict and frustration, not just how to get angry. My hope and dream for this year is to find the right job for Kev. He is so unhappy at Qwest, and who would blame him. They treat him so badly. He's testing for police, but it just doesn't feel right. I pray that he is able to find the right place for him and our family. My other hope is that Kev comes to my way of thinking and agrees to try one more time for a girl. I am deeply desperate for one more child in a way that i am not fully able to express. kev is so done with kids and he feels equally passionate about being done. I hope we are able to find some common ground. Then there is the old favorite to start working out.....yuck.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

The most wonderful types of weekends

What a wonderful weekend we had. Friday I helped my girlfriend Caroline host a party for her husbands office of 50 people. She lives for these type of things and soared through it as if she had been hosting parties her whole life. I would have been freaking out, but not Caroline, amazing. Saturday we had a wonderful morning with the family. Jack's Christmas list included only two things, a bakugon and Christmas lights on our house. So Kev fulfilled his Christmas dream and hung some lights on our house, which in turn prompted our neighbor to do the same. Jack was so excited, it looks so pretty at night. In the evening we had dinner with some dear friends, and again had a wonderful time. The food was amazing, the kids all played so nicely together and we were able to have hours of uninterrupted (well maybe not totally uninterrupted) adult conversation. Really the high light of the week. Hopefully after the new year we can start hosting some get togethers too. Today was our day of nothing. We had planned to take the kids sledding, but the passes did not get any snow. So instead we tried our hand at ice skating. We found out quickly that we are not cut out for ice skating. Mason had a great time. He used a upside down bucket to push himself around the rink. He has really come a long way in the last year. A year ago there is no way he would get out there and want to keep going. this time he didn't really even take a break for the hour we were there. I have always been so concerned about how easily he gives up and get discouraged, and I am so relieved to see that he is starting to push himself, and realize he doesn't have to be perfect at everything, there is something to be said for just having fun. Jack was hilarious! He had a very difficult time standing up on the ice. He was initially really excited to get out there, but once he figured out it wasn't all that easy, he had had his fill. He used the bucket to hang onto and Kev and I took turns pushing him around, just the one time around the rink. The funniest thing was that he was just letting his feet drag behind the bucket like a rag doll. He didn't even try to get back up on the skates. He is just so darn cute without even trying. On the way home he serenaded us with Jesus Loves Me. I love to hear my boys sing.
Speaking of singing. Mason is my early riser, much to my dismay. Once he wakes up in the morning he is very loud, he has no regard for anyone else trying to sleep, drives me crazy. But what he has been doing lately is to sing bible songs at the top of his lungs. Ya can't yell at the kid to be quiet when he is singing about the Lord, i think you go to hell for things like that. I think he must know that, that kid is way to smart! Got to love these kids, never a dull moment.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Lifes saddest moments

It's amazing how God has a way of putting things into perspective. I had gotten a call from Kev today braking the news to me that he would not be getting on an earlier shift. So understandably I was annoyed and angry. Not more then an hour later, I got a call from a friend telling me that a good friend from work was very sick. Maricris was 28 and expecting her first baby, after having a miscarriage last year. She was so excited to become a mom. Apparently she had collapsed this morning while brushing her teeth. Turns out she had had a major brain aneurysm and was put on life support. She had an emergency c-section to deliver her baby Hanna Olivia, who was a healthy baby girl. However, by the evening she was taking off life support and passed away. How tragic, how unbelievably tragic. I don't even know what to say or think. It's amazing how fast things can change. She had just posted pics of her baby shower the day before. I have been so touched by how many people have said such wonderful things on facebook. The site has become a support group for all of those that knew and loved her. I just pray that her baby will grow knowing how amazing and wonderful her mother was and how much she loved her. I am truly having a hard time understanding God's plan today, but I will continue to believe that his plan is perfect.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

It's begining to look alot like Christmas!

What a fun day! It started off by sleeping in and waking up to the smell of bacon. Kev had gotten up early with the boys and made breakfast. We then jumped in the car to hunt down our Christmas tree. We had planned to go to St. Nicks and u-cut tree farm that we went to 2 years ago. It's in Monroe and takes about an hour to get to. After driving up there, singing Christmas music the whole way, we found a big sign that said Sold Out!! But we made lemonade out of lemons and went to a tree farm off of hwy 9 about 10 minutes from our house. We found the perfect tree that looks and smells great. It spoke to us as Kev says. We came home and decorated the house. The house which how looks about half the size with all the Christmas stuff everywhere. Had a great time doing it. We ended our holiday day by going to Warm Beach Christmas Light Festival with the Warrens. I think this will be our new Christmas tradition with the Warrens. It's always so much fun. The night was cold, but dry, unlike last year. We were dressed very warm, which was very nice. The kids had a great time. By far the favorite activity was the horse riding. Jack had the time of his life, I haven't seen a smile on his face that big in a while. Mason had a great time too. We ended with fresh made donuts.
We just love this time of year! We are so looking forward to papa and nana coming up for Christmas this year, then driving up to Spokane to see Chad and Melissa, not to mention all the Fullers.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Life full of blessings

On my way home from having the first playdate in a long time with two of my very best friends I realized how very blessed I am. I started this day feeling so tired and worn out by my stressful week. Every morning when I wake up until the time I go to bed I have been constantly thinking about work and how stressed I am. It has totally consumed my every thought. It wasn't until I was driving home that I realized I had not thought about work for the entire time I was with my friends. I spent the time laughing and catching up. When I left I felt lifted up and happy. What an amazing gift. These two people are the type of friends that define the word "friend". They are caring and sincere, and don't judge.
Prior to that I went to bible study, where there is another amazing group of women. The ladies in the group are all so committed to raising their children to be God fearing people. It is so helpful to hear what works for other people.
As I look back on this day I can only say God is good. It was as if he had planned this day himself. I needed this day. I needed to spend the morning praising God and asking for his guidance and the afternoon laughing and letting go. This is the best i have felt in a week.